I'm starting to understand the idea of the maya "dream world" as I've read about in readings on Advaita Vedanta or people like Yogananda. I wake up in the middle of what I'm doing, like lucid dreaming. It happens randomly and unpredictably. I would have thought the idea was stupid a few years ago, because it was a way of perceiving I had never experienced. And it was a stupid idea for me back then, in the sense that it was too much to be useful and I had no way of understanding it. Now, bit by bit, it's getting so obvious. I don't know why things are like this, that's beyond me, but it's clear now that they are.

What has the practical effect been? I stop worrying about something I was worrying about, or I don't do something I had felt compelled to do but was conflicted about--I realize I don't have to do anything. And I decide to do things I was struggling with. It would be useful to me if I could get woken up more often, because I keep thinking about way too many unimportant things and not doing tasks that need to be completed. But I can't speed the process or it's too unsettling.