Am so unmotivated to do everything I'm supposed to do--just a few more weeks. Everything at Cornell is so silly--they use ridiculously big words all the time. I was at this group meeting where we were writing something up. The whole thing was ridiculously academic. I said I didn't know what any of a certain part meant and people kind of looked around funny, awkwardly. In a sense, I did know what it meant, but it was just a bunch of big abstract words, practically meaningless. No one outside of academia would know what it meant (and the target audience for this was not at Cornell). I know they weren't trying to sound pretentious, but they were. Maybe by being so honest I make myself look stupid (hence the awkwardness).

Maybe I can try different phrasing, use big words to express myself, "I am unsure if the expressions used here are are of sufficient brevity and specificity to be understood by the layperson." Okay, I just lost myself with that sentence. My big dream for the world is that one day we won't have to pretend to be smarter than other people or to know things we don't know.