viernes es el último dia del mi trabajo

Changes have always come more slowly than I've liked. Now everything is finally changing, more than ever before, and I am awful at keeping up with everyone, because I need so much time alone to recharge and process (even when everything is the same). Hopefully this will help people keep up. Sorry for the impersonality of it. The Luddite is me is quite conflicted.

I'm going to keep randomly insert foreign words when I think of them, apologies to those who don't know them. I am not trying to be pretentious (I was never good enough at any language to be pretentious), I am just trying to practice. I am terrified of forgetting Spanish now that I'm leaving my work.

Some nice thoughts from an old Species Traitor article:

"Existing in wildness, or simply being at all, means you have to start thinking for yourself. You have to be aware of your surroundings and learn how to take them in without having them blown up and framed for you. It means recognizing subtlety, distance, and being open to the way other life communicates and reacts to your presence. You have to expand your general awareness. That serves practical purposes as much as it does spiritual ones."

Awareness is my big flaw. I am incredibly self-directed, always thinking inwards. Maybe I will be able to grow in this area, slowly but persistently.